Suckitude...

I lost my job a few weeks ago... this blows. I'm looking really hard for a job but I'm either over qualified for everything (so the gently say when they respond that I didn't get the job) or its got some weird niche software hardware requirement that I've never come across before.

I'm ready to take just about anything just to have some money flowing in, really, I don't care at this point. SOMEONE JUST FREAKING HIRE ME!!!

I'm starting to get into a funk here. I can feel it in my bones. Its been in my bones for awhile now. Something is amiss and I'm not sleeping anymore.

Quote for Today

You need only reflect that one of the best ways to get yourself a reputation as a dangerous citizen these days is to go about repeating the very phrases which our founding fathers used in the struggle for independence.
- Charles Austin Beard

Snow day...

The world I know is gone
A blinding blanket lay upon
Its face and it gleams anew
With light the cold wind blew

It is crusted in a shroud
Weaved of winter cloud
It hugs the house in drifts
Deepening as icy fingers lift

And my feet sink and wallow
Make paths the wind will swallow
With icy dust awhirling
The whole world in white is swirling

Nights...

I miss my wife. Tracey's back on nights again and so our schedules are a mess. I really miss her and the 20 mins or so I get to squeak in on the days I get home before she leaves just isn't enough.

I hope she finds a trade soon cause we have so much fun together and I hate not being around her.

Holidays...

The holidays fucking suck.

Thats all I have to say about that.

Updates

I finally have my license back... what a relief it is to feel free again. If I want to go somewhere, take part in something, hell just spin the wheels and waste the gas I am now able to do so. Its taken a TREMENDOUS amount of stress off of me. It was a very expensive weekend getting "legal" and getting the cars up and running well again but I am so glad to drive!

In other news, I finally culled together a bunch of material for the book I want to write, I got all my notes together and was going over all the publiciation agreements and legalese when BOOM I found out that my proposal is already being done and should be published in 2010. Crap!!! BUT it felt good to have that fire under me and it was nice to have a sense of purpose and direction so I think the library will see me soon and I'll just have to pick another subject/era/locale to write my sourcebook from.

I'm thinking now maybe a Call of Cthulhu sourcebook on "Secrets of Texas: The Stars at Night are Finally Right, Deep in the Heart of Texas!" muhahahahahahahahahahah

Just Think! - Robert W. Service

Just think! some night the stars will gleam
Upon a cold gray stone,
And trace a name with silver beam,
And lo! 'twill be your own.
That night is speeding on to greet
Your epitaphic rhyme.
Your life is but a little beat
Within the heart of Time.
A little gain, a little pain,
A laugh lest you may moan;
A little blame, a little fame,
A star gleam on a stone.